Thanks for the info brother, much appreciated.
I really wish I wasn't doing this on my own but having folks offer so much helpful info is a really big deal. Back when I was first looking at all of this I made a conscious note to myself regarding the need to screen/filter everything I read. heard etc as it was obvious there was a lot of "bro science" in play that ended up being really conflicting so classifying the sources according to a reasonable scale of veracity/reliability became a must in order to not make more mistakes than a noob like myself was likely prone to make anyway.
Finding this forum was perhaps the single biggest positive event during the early part of this journey, especially given the level of quality info available here but more important the level of camaraderie and just the flat out helpful nature of so many of the folks I have met. I can honestly say that one of my worries was that I would be sen as a "tourist" or "joy rider" because of my not being into lifting or body building or anything like that. The was the single largest motivating force behind my sharing as much of my personal story as I have so that folks would see that despite my having a different situation from a lot of people, I was no less sincerely invested in the process, doing it right, learning how to do that from the right people, etc.
Having the benefit of hindsight, I don't have to guess at the results/impact of not getting my situation under control but never having gone as long as I had this time without TRT, and the portion of the slow degradation/downhill grind of my health, that this was responsible for, I didn't realize how long, and to what extent, things had been more seriously messed up than even I realized. It's that whole pot/frog/boiling water thing right. Over the last 10-11 years I always had my script for Androgel ready to go or refills waiting at my pharmacy so there was never any delay once I felt the barest inkling that things were sliding to far down into the wrong place again. If I had, at that time, a doc that was more knowledgeable about all of this in addition to his being very co-operative in helping, I would have been doing things much differently, but at least he didn't deny me treatment like my current doc has.
I've never been one for experimentation just for the sake of it, (well there was this time with this Scandinavian goddess and her Vietnamese BFF g/f but that's a whole other story lol) or the type to just throw caution to the wind and I've always been an "over-researcher", or "over thinker" so I can assure everyone/anyone that I may be conversing with at any time that I not only read and evaluate every aspect of this, especially the safety protocols/factors, but that if at any time someone sees me messing up I welcome being told that I am doing so and welcome being told because the person speaking up actually gives a shit about my inexperience not causing me harm.
Maybe some day I will be able to snatch the pebble from the master's hand. Until then I am just a humble student.