I completely understand, we all struggle. I have a lot of shit I deal with but I keep it to myself and nobody would be able to tell. Anyway, what makes us all a champion is fighting through it and training on our bad days and pushing through the shit. You can do it, the mind it powerful if you just say fuck it and do it. Keep kicking ass man!
So I think by my calculations you are taking sustanon at 1050 mg a week right? sus 350, 1.5 ml twice a week.