You mentioned anxiety in your post, was this before or after your front load?
I find high(ish) doses of masteron to be quite unpleasant, and it is fairly common for large doses of eq to cause anxiety, just food for thought.
As for the orals, I've only ever used them for strength. My favorite being 40mg d-bol.
But in all honesty I've never been a big fan of orals. I've never used one that accomplished something that test or tren couldn't do better.