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Well I am managing but my body has gone to shit. I've started regaining some strength but I definitely look horrible. I am sitting in 250s and got love handles like wtf lol... badly... it's quite discouraging and depressing. I also still have zero sex drive but my mood has improved, my energy is okay... I push through the workouts but recovery is mediocre and growth I think not going to really happen much... endurance is kinda there but its weird.... It's been a while now, so I think soon I'll get myself tested for sperm count and test/estradiol/lh/fsh levels... see how things are Also I stopped peptides as the BT rep hasn't been responding... he said he went on vacation early march and now nothing... emailed a few times... was hoping to at least run ipamorelin and modgrf as it helped alot with sleep and recovery... even pumps especially being with low test and nothing else. I'm avoiding all stims even caffeine pills.

Thank you brother. Well first two weeks were depressing, but my mood stabilized. Taking 50mg-100mg every day. Aromasin one to two times a week. Second week training and a bit better now. Def lower volume. More than ever before training with a mind over matter notion, giving it my all and yet still performing so badly from both an aesthetic and number performance perspective. I am logging and might paste in here but alas. Wanted to thank BodyTech for the times they hooked me up, they've been good to me. I hope to be sponsored again in the future. For now I am getting ipamorelin and mod-grf from them to help me go through this. And I got clomid and aromasin from them.

And getting off completely after over a decade of being on will be traumatizing. I am not looking forward to this... reason again IVF... I don't know how my body will react... my body just went to shit from COVID anyway...

Well I've been sick since start of Feb with COVID... its bad... so dont let anyone tell you its just like the flu... i also ahvent taken shots in nearly two weeks now i think... i contacted bodytech for clomid bottles.. so waiting on his response... as i may try to wean off for the first time. I feel like i'll be sick for a whole month anyway...

Yeah Fouad was the first one to tell me about it years ago.. except it didnt cost as much back then... I think thats my only option, thanks brother

https://globalnews.ca/news/7576649/ontario-stay-at-home-order-enforcement-coronavirus/ They're not allowed to stop you or even question you. a letter from ontario government was sent to police chiefs to illustrate this How will police enforce the new rules? The Ontario Association of Chiefs of Police confirmed officers will not be stopping people only to ask about the stay-at-home orders. “Individuals cannot be compelled to explain why they are out of their residence,” spokesman Joe Couto said. “When people understand that our officers are not going to be looking for people who happen to be out like me walking my dog, I think they will then feel a lot better. Simply getting into their car and going to the grocery store wondering if they’re going to see the lights in their back windows is not going to happen.” Peel Regional Police said enforcement will be complaint driven. “Enforcement will be an option when responding to calls relating to the order, and/or public gatherings,” said Const. Sarah Patten in an email.

This is what I bought, it's sure as hell hard to pull yourself up for reps at 265lbs lol but according to the wife my back is pumped after each session, that makes me feel a bit better. The handle grips are so tiny for my hands its a joke but I'm managing... and the vinyl is thin and crap but i paid 200 bux.... so who can complain, plus now its unavailable to purchase. Also now when I checked the price jumped to 350 bux, so supply and demand. I knew it was a wise choice to get right at start of lockdown before people start buying gym stuff out Also the push press system board is wicked, I can't lie, at this bodyweight it's actually pretty effective for chest workouts, I'm happy to say that each session has slightly have me improved. The only thing I'm not really able to train are legs

I've been away for a while... stopped logging as gyms got locked out... and just as I was just gearing up back into things... oh well we're in this all together. On the other hand I did start home workouts, this time around I won't just lay around and work and binge on netflix... I do a push/pull bodyweight routine.. very basic... my push press system I purchased last time during lockdown and this time around I purchased a pullup station (leg raises, etc... too). We will survive

Man I had a rough time, kinda depressed and progress stalled too, also one of my phones died so I lost alot of logs, but I have new logs, been a rough little while sorry for no updates...

I know i haven't posted in days, but I have been keeping a log, it's just working during the day and working out during the night with personal life has been really hard. Damn COVID. I am down to 255.5lbs as of yesterday morning which is great, also making progress in terms of feel during lifting, how i look, strength/endurance, it's getting easier going and doing. I am not aiming for all out strength (which is my norm) but just trying to train more with a BB mindset whether solo days or with my friend when we train together. Overall good times, minus the COVID crap

Thursday November 19 2020 Arrive 1027 Start 1040 Finish 1205 Leave 1210 Decline bench 135x30 225x9 225x6 245x2 ache 245x had to stop right ache Atlantis Standing laterals 90x19 90x20 105x15 105x19 105x17 Db curl 40x10 ache in right bicep 45x10 still aching 45x10 Tricep press down bar attachment 60x16 60x18 70x17 85x6 85x8 Atlantis incline plated machine independent handles 45x16 45x14 perpendicular handles 45x16 flat position 2 45x14 ache in right Atlantis Decline plated machine independent handles 45x19 45x16 + 9 perpendicular 55x17 65x19 limit due to pain Prime incline press 25x19 middle range perpendicular 50x19 middle + bottom range perpendicular 50x9 middle + bottom range perpendicular 50x9+3 middle + end range Unfortunately pain in right all the way through really handicapping me... Atlantis cable incline bench staked weight 60x15 60x16 60x20 Pannatta standing multi fly 35x30 chest flies 50x31 chest flies 60x27 a bit pushing it gotta be careful 60x30 60x16 burnt Amazing machine Atlantis rear and lateral set 75x21 90x12 90x12

Wednesday November 18 2020 Leave 1020 Arrive 1030 Start 1037 Finish 1205 Life fitness seated wide rows 50x25 70x18 80x14 lower back pump 80x14 Panatta high row 45x20 90x22 135x8 135x7 115x14 good feels 115x16 115x14 90x17 Hammer strength plated low row 90x17 100x14 100x16 100x12 110x10 110x7 100x6 Hammer strength individual plated pull downs 45x31 70x20 70x17 70x16 Nautilus xplod Lat pull down plated 80x15 105x15 105x10 Prime extreme row setting 1 45x20 very unique machine and feel 45x12 lowered seat as I'm tall 55x12 55x12 65x12 65x12 Life fitness seated rows close grip 60x16 60x20 70x12 70x15 70x12 80x12 Pannatta abdominal crunch 50x20 75x25 75x25 85x22 85x16 Cardio Start 1201 Finish 1206

Tuesday November 17 2020 Arrive 1142 Start 1205 Finish 130 Leave 135 No caffeine or ephedrine today but I did take cialis the other which has caused me to cramp on higher reps Late night timing is also not quite working with my food timings either Hammer strength Outer hip abductor 295x30 305x40 Hammer strength Inner hip abductor 305x27 305x20 Cybex eagle Leg extensions 190x15 190x9 higher rep last time 190x6 190x6 190x4 bad cramping had to stop 170x12 170x8 170x4 horrendous cramping Atlantis single Leg curls 45x20 bad cramps from cialis 60x13 60x10 Squats 135x11 155x3 185x3 205x3 225x3 255x3 so empty n hungry 275x1 295x1 315x1 Atlantis Leg press 360x8 360x8 Single Leg curls 60x12

The change in scheduling and training late is hard on me so far, having to space out meals so far out and get hungry at night before training, it'll get some getting used to even for my buddy. So last night was 1030pm, tonight is midnight... and i have to get up for a team meeting it'lll really really suck. I barely ate today and it's supposed to be legs tonight for me... but family is coming over and soon we'll make some lamb so hopefully that makes me feel good! Also I got gear on the way from Bodytech, hopefully by thursday as I am out. Monday November 16 2020 Leave 1013pm Arrive 1024pm Start 1036pm Finish 1201am Leave 1207am Decline bench 135x25 225x11 245x6 255x3 Db curl 37.5x15 40x15 45x12 50x7 Atlantis plated standing shoulder press perpendicular handle 45x12 65x8 Atlantis standing laterals 60x16 75x16 75x18 90x13 90x14 Db incline 50x14 55x14 55x7 has to stop need to try different bench shoulder clicking on this incline not good Atlantis plated standing shoulder press perpendicular handle 65x8 65x7 slow n controlled 85x6 85x6 95x6 95x6 Atlantis bent handle rear n lateral delt 60x18 75x19 75x13 90x14 90x18 90x14 Db curl 50x17 50x10 50x8 hungry and tired Atlantis Standing laterals 105x12 Flex bisolator 100x14 100x18 110x19 120x12 130x12 Strength 3xl plated flies 25x15 25x20 tried to be really focused having to be super careful on right shoulder n chest 25x20 same better 25x18

Oh yeah I weighed myself this morning and I am down to 260lbs

I am getting really worried if we get shut down, my area is in red zone starting monday so most likely it'll be down to ten ppl at a time.. better than closed, i am booking in advance but I'll find out the news monday. Tomorrow I planned to train legs but I won't as the wife is making us go up north some place... so no gym tomorrow. Scared for monday... @BodyTechPharma I emailed your rep, I am guessing the man is just enjoying his weekend but I thought I'd tag you Saturday November 14 2020 Arrive 1110 Start 1115 Finish phone died... Hammer strength isolateral row 90x18 135x18 180x8 180x12 180x13 225x8 very tough and hungry Different feel to my old gym version - better harder and smoother Hammer strength plated low row 45x21 90x14 tough 90x14 better 100x14 tough 100x14 better 100x14 110x10 tough Pannatta Lat machine convergent 45x23 90x14 pain in right Bicep, elbow, Rotator and Lat lmao 90x7 90x16 good feel n form No label played single row Machine 90x16 135x5 too hungry Hammer strength isolate rap pulldown 45x27 90x 8 tough 90x12 tough 90x12 tough n hungry 90x10 tough Atlantis seated bent flies rear and lateral delt 75x15 tough still I think not recovered from Thursday 75x16 75x12 tough n hungry 60x19 good feels 60x Pannatta seated lateral raise 30x25 40x26 50x18 Atlantis plated standing shoulder press perpendicular handle 90x11 90x8 too hungry 90x6 100x7 110x6 120x5 hungry tired Bisolator 50x12+18 80x12 Did low of sets of this before leaving. Phone battery died so I didn't get chance to record it probably a good 6 more sets. I went up to 120lbs on last set

I had a great workout yesterday, but I took today off. I also heard our region is going red so more restrictions (FUCK) Thursday November 12 2020 Arrive 524 Start 532 Finish 722 Leave 726 Decline bench 135x25 225x11 245x6 245x5 265x4 275x2 295x3 spotted need to improve Db curl 37.5x15 40x14 45x10 flat + 4 sideways 50x7 50x8 Atlantis Lateral delt standing raises 45x35 75x23 90x23 90x21 105x14 this is the weight to challenge me 105x13 105x13 wrist hurting a bit 105x16 Atlantis behind the neck seated Bar Tricep extensions 60x15 60x9 hard as hell 60x13 Problem with this machine is getting started as bar is so far behind the neck to grab to start Flex fitness systems bisolator singles 80x21 80x22 100x14 120x14 120x12 130x14 don't go higher improve tension n form Atlantis seated bent flies rear and lateral delt 75x12 75x15 75x15 great 90x12 really hard but did it must improve 90x13 done Atlantis plated standing shoulder press perpendicular handle 90x14 90x Cooled off talking to my buddy lol n someone took my Machine Strength 3xl flies 25x16 25x12 35x15 35x7 tired Panatta inclined chest press 90x15 90x17 110x18 110x12 tired Atlantis plated standing shoulder press perpendicular handles 90x12 110x12 110x8 130x7 130x6 150x6 170x4 Db lateral one handed 45x14

ya them orals are dropping hahaha... I am doing good

Bros I am SPOILED at this new gym! My buddy is super happy, we literally the whole time were like kids at a candy store! So fricking excited and motivated! We were jacked back in the day together and so training together again AND at a good gym this time around we are esctatic. Everything we've tried is epic, bro, we're in the middle of the training session and we are already giddy about the next day and what we're gonna try out and do. Today everything we used was AMAZING, it just kept getting and feeling better. He trains like a pure BBer I am part PL, so we push each other in the opposite directions and it helps us both progress. So while training with him I go for volume and tension alot, I do the aggression thing and pushing numbers and the envelope. We push each other just the right amount too. Anwyays felt epic literally worked out two hours with him and we wanted to keep going LOL Best decision ever moving gyms together and I am getting another buddy who is a big PLer joining up saturday! Getting my whole old crew to join together! Oh ya cause I didn't have proper hamstring machines at my old gym I am so f'en sore today from yesterday, it just feels different when you try different equipment and feel that lactic acid burn finally haha, it's like what we were telling each other, we were pretty much 'maintaining' the way we trained at our old shitty gym (limited crap and options) Wednesday November 11 2020 Arrive 528 Start 530 (f yea no wait time) Finish 746 Leave 747 There's so much equipment choice at this gym, equipment brands and models I never even heard of so lol don't mind me if I have some long ass names in here. Life fitness seated cable rows 42.5x20 70x20 80x19 80x18 Panatta Lat machine convergent 45x25 90x20 90x18 90x18 Hammer strength row 90x18 90x18 100x14 100x15 100x14 Nautilus seated plate rows with dynamic motion handles 90x15 90x13 90x14 No label plated single row Machine (AWESOME similar to hammer strength/life fitness but unique and felt the squeeze and burn) 45x20 45x15 90x18 90x18 90x20 135x13 135x9 Hammer strength isolate single rep pull downs Same/but different to my old gym THIS WAS AMAAAZING we were so impressed, the lat squeeze and pump! 70x19 70x20 80x19 90x18 90x15 Abdominal crunch (plate loaded) 25x13 50x16 85x20 85x10 50x18 50x48 60x27 60x20 60x18 Side oblique plate bends 45x16 45x16 45x15 45x16 Tomorrow I am giddy to do chest/shoulder training there are SO MANY options.. I'll still continue decline benching but there are so many unique options, plate loaded laying flies, lateral raise options (standing, sitting, bent -- bent one hits rear delts too sick), a shit ton SHIT TON of vertical presses, incline presses, omg... I will be in trial mode and just gotta keep my head on straight and not tear my right again and hopefully finally start growing my shoulders after a frickin year and my chest properly (i made all this progress on the decline dont wana undo that)!

My friend and I are cancelling our membership at our old gym and joining another. No comparison between the two. Today they locked down even more equipment at our old gym, so pretty pointless to wait 40 minutes, train 30 minutes and pay for that. The new gym is double the price but pro oriented, 10x the amount of equipment (and good unique equipment). Lots of buddies and old competitors I know in there. I am also making another old friend join up as he is fed up of the restrictions. So the three of us will train together. So as a point of reference while there is similar equipment, it's all different brands and set of equipment. Tuesday November 10 2020 Start 512 Finish 700 (I don't remember the exact time as the phone died on me and I also did some cardio on stairmaster and talked to another old friend for about 20 minutes) Hammer strength Outer hip abductor 295x20 305x30 Hammer strength Inner hip abductor 295x20 305x30 Cybx eagle Leg extensions 170x16 190x16 190x17 Atlantis single Leg curls 45x20 60x13 60x10 Squats 135x12 135x12 225x6 225x6 225x5 275x3 seeing stars n extremely hungry Atlantis bent single Leg curl 45x14 45x14 45x13 45x11 45x14 Five sets of Leg presses (phone died) 4 minutes on stair master

This will be my 'cruise' I stay on all year as I am on HRT for life. It's smooth, I feel good and make steady progress. Lower test works well. I also take aromasin every other or every third day depending on sides. SO I was mad pissed last night, not only did they lock up certain machines on Friday, now my gym needs booking in advance AND wait in line. So if you book 6pm, you have to come early, can't be late more than 15min (that time counts) and you and everyone else has to be prechecked before being let in at 6pm. So tecchnically I only started 615pm BUT you have to leave 7pm sharp. So I had to go bathroom and guess what I barely had a workout. Can't do cardio. So I am seriously considering switching gyms, so pissed off. Monday November 9 2020 Arrived 543 Start 612 Finish 659 Decline bench 135x20 225x11 was 12 235x9 245x5 255x4 failed on fifth rep 265x1 275x1 285xfail Tricep pressdown bar 42.5x14 Db curl 37.5x15 40x14 45x10 47.5x7 47.5x7 50x7 50x7 Db lateral 45x12 45x12 45x13 Incline bench db 60x7 65x6

deca, dbol and winny... old school mix regiment... but i can never run winny, destroys my joints...

I thought keto would be bad with blood acidity and fatty circulation?

ya buddy been wondering how u been

Friday November 6 2020 Start 358pm Finish 6pm Pissed off today, came in all excited to train back and the gym blocked of all my fav back equipment! My buddy was pissed too we both came to train back. We're having to improvise... just as I started to make steady progress again... Fuck COVID. Apparently might have to start booking appointments soon too no more lineup... and... they are further reducing amount of ppl that can be in gym. Also in Sauga it might go down to 10 ppl in the gym at a time when they reopen. So much bs. Barbell rows 135x20 135x16 155x14 155x11 175x9 195x7 195x7 195x4 215x4 215x5 Working my forearms with this exercise as it's my weak link here lol Rear delt db raises 17.5x20 17.5x20 20x16 20x16 20x12 22.5x14 22.5x14 25x12 25x12 Reverse deck 130x13 130x11 130x7 Crossover cables rear delt 17x13 17x15 17x15 Life fitness front pulldowns sideways 90x12 cramped bad fuck 90x12 mad hungry 100x12 110x12 120x12 Seated cable rows 190x13 205x12 205x13 220x8 Life fitness torso rotations 150x13 170x12 170x12 190x11 190x12 Db sideways (oblique/ab) 60x14 70x12 Was going to do cardio but I am so hungry and just about to eat now...