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[German89]

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[German89]

Macros

[German89]

So, today I finally noticed the changes in my body. 

I am going to continue with just maintaining where I am at for a little bit.  i took those few days off from the gym and squated today and I wasn't happy with my squat sucking ass. got 235lbs for 8. should've been hitting that for 10. 

anyways,  half hour of cardio, squats and some stiff legged deads with shoulder raises and upright rows. nothing too crazy yet. still gotta take it easy with my knee.

[German89]

deep cleaning day, i'll post marcos up in a bit

my wrist/forearm are super bad today.  had to take codeine. just finished putting peas on it. hopefully this heals up soon or, i'll be stuck with this pain for life.  i should've told the doctor last week 

[German89]

Macros




calorie drop is killing me... i don't know what i am doing

[German89]

Just some side notes for myself:

Still no period. it's been since October 2018
Acne, getting better.
voice, calming down
sex drive, still... I don't know.. not as fuckin high but, hasn't crashed yet. 
hair, breaking, like crazy. i don't know if that's my own doing or, gear related. time for a cut, my ends are horrible
hmmm... i've been anxious the past few days. but, not gear related.
nose bleeds... not everyday but, still getting them, those are not gear related.  I don't know if i mentioned my in my previous log about them but, i am seeing a specialist next month, i want it cauterized. I also have a xray booked for my knee and shoulder and a ultrasound for my shoulder this up coming wednesday.

i haven't weighted myself, i will tomorrow morning. and, i guess i am fasting now since, my calories have gotten so low, my last meal was pretty much at eight and, i won't have breakfast until like, 7 - 830am.  

 

[German89]

Macros are the same as yesterday.

I only had time for 20 mins cardio today

[German89]

Macros

[German89]

I am taking today off from the gym. play date today and, i typically do not go on saturdays anyway. for some stupid reason i thought it was sunday lol

i did however, wake up in a lot of ovarian pain. i don't know if my period is coming? ovulating? or dehydration. i however, took some t1s, chugged a fuck ton of water, laid back down for 45 mins and i feel much better. still a little crampy but, manageable/tolerable pain now. 

weight this morning 163lbs. 

late, late start to my day but, that's okay, don't have much to do.

[German89]

chest/cardio today

post macros up in a bit.. i'm probably gonna head to the gym here in about a half hour.  

[German89]

Had a decent workout. really good pump.. the swap from my old lab to BT was smooth as fuck!! super happy.

not working on any PRs at the moment but, still no decrease in strength, yet. 

[German89]

Macros

[German89]

CHECKING IN:

I'll try and get my macros posted here in a little bit.  I had to do ultrasound and xrays this morning.  gotta take my son to the dentist in a bit too.. hopefully be able to hit legs/shoulders/cardio today.  busy errand day, fml.  i wish i had someone else to help sometimes. 

[German89]

I will check in later with a update. 

Just been busy. I should have time later

[German89]

New macros.

I'm gonna stick to this for a little. Todays workout was great. 

[German89]

I am adding in BT sibutramine about EOD or E3D. Just to help with cravings. 

[German89]

Good morning boys and ladies.

I will stick to the macros as above.  I have a off day from the gym today... If I can go do cardio, I will. if not, then it's no biggie, i need the rest.

Today is a baking day:
Cupcakes
Cookies and, I am attempting my first ever, swiss roll. Wish me luck!

And I will pop sibutramine today just so i dont munch on a lot of cookie dough.  it's my weakness.  I might post a picture later if everything turns out nicely.

Enjoy the weekend, everyone..

 

PS.. I know the board is mainly "boys" and, it's very easy for me to just say, "boys" if, there are any lib-tard/pc people, i don't give a fuck, when i say boys/bothers, i am including the ladies/sisters too. 

[German89]

my baked goods... and yes, i had a few cookies, oh well.

[German89]

I am back to the drawing boards.

I am losing hair and I dont know why.  The androgenic rate of var is so low, it doesnt make sense. I am bloated too. 

Calling doctor in 5 mins to get some blood work in and find out my results of my knee and shoulder. 

I am cutting a day of cardio too.  I will be hitting legs today, I think. 

I'm lowering carbs back down to about 120g and fats up to 50 to 60g.  I will try and under 1800 calories.

My guy suggested its diet related and something to do with my hormones.  Hopefully I can get to the bottom of this. 

I'm on the fence of continuing the var or completely dropping it. Opinions?

 

ETA: I've been on var since September.  Could it finally be catching up?

[German89]

New plan.

I am dropping down to 5mg of var and I will be doing blood work to figure out what is happening.  I will need to find a dht shampoo and, I will ask the doctor about progesterone. 

In the mean time.  I will continue the usual at the gym but, here are my new macros.  I was 165 yesterday. This morning 160.  A little bloat has calmed down. 

 

 

[German89]

Morning everyone.

Been a busy few days. Went on a food binge. Glad to be back to normal. Yesterday was my birthday and, did buffet. I was sick pretty much after that. The night before had a bunch of junk and a bottle of Scotch. Last night drank a little vodka too. 

Anyways. Back to normal diet today. Tomorrow I should be getting blood drawn.  I have a tear in my shoulder.  I am sure I have a tear in my knee but, the doc didnt order a ultrasound so... now I wait. Til I die. For the specialist appointment.. fuck this health system. Seriously. I dont know how you guys deal with this shit. 

I'm dropping anavar until my hair calms down.  I'm sure a combination of gear. Stress and genetics have me all fucked up at the moment.  Since my useless doctor wasnt willing to test my hormones, I'm going to say, my estrogen is a little too low. I'm gonna wait for a period to show up and then, probably hop back on. 

My main goal still is: loose bodyfat. And maintain my size which, will be a little trickier since, I had to put the var back on the shelf.

Macros: I will keep it at 1650 to 1750ish

[German89]

Some progress:

 

[GameChanger]

On 3/10/2019 at 7:19 PM, German89 said:

meathead in a dress.. uggghh, hate dressing up but, had to for the court house on friday

I'll try and be back and post my macros.

took some BT sibutramin so, haven't really ate much and, don't plan on eating much today.  time change fucked with me too.

I also had vodka last night. and 20mins of cardio today. I might go back and do a second round

vodka+ sibutramine,great comb lol.

P.S you look great

[German89]

30 minutes ago, GameChanger said:

vodka+ sibutramine,great comb lol.

P.S you look great

Lmfao. I like to push the limits

[German89]

UPDATE:

Just a little update since my freakout.

So, since BTRep and I spoke. dropping var for a little was in my best interest.  It's been a week? I think maybe a week and a half? I'm not sure.  I'm still shedding but, not as much as I was 4 weeks ago.  It's calmed down.  I'm sure my body was just trying to tell me something.  That i was dumb as fuck for being on var for 8 months.  I think just being stressed with life my body wasn't producing enough "stress hormone" as my dentist called it. resulting to hair loss. who knows?

I've done blood work.  Routine blood work because, you know, getting a hormone panel was too much.  Something is up with the kidneys. 

Rant:
FUCK, ontario health system.  Or, fuck this communist fuckin health system.  I'm beyond pissed at this point with everything that's been going on.  When I did my blood work, I also signed up for it to be posted online and, it was posted about 12hrs later. I saw, and still can, see my results but, I can't self diagnose but, what i can say is, I need more fuckin tests! The next day, I had a doctors appointment.  This was also scheduled pap.  so, i do the dreaded pap. after everything, he tries to pull my blood work up and he doesn't have it. Another fuckin week of waiting.  Here is the best fuckin part. Best part!  This motherfuker used a expired bottle for my pap SOOOO.... Now. I have to do it over again.  He hasn't called to reschedule the pap. Nor do I want to do it because!!! I'm so irritated.  Like, i am ready to go to the walk in to get medicine for whatever the fuck he did to me down there. Oh! and, to top it off, when we were done the check up part, he even asked if i wanted to do the pap today like, yes motherfucker that's why i am here!!!  holy shit!!!

I've had nothing but a wonderful trip down the old canadian health system. it's been nothing but long waits and fuck ups. what else will happen?  i start having kidney failure and pray to god i don't die while waiting.  Faauck me! 

RANT OVER.

 

So, i'm still using sibutramine as I need it.  I don't like using it everyday.  I took it yesterday, I still feel it in me enough today. As of this morning i was 161lbs. I've really been focusing on cardio this week. I upped my time to 32 mins.  Today if I can get to the gym, I will do my best to hit 35mins.  my macros:  104g Carb, 50g Fat, 179g protein for a total of, 1608 calories. I think I'll stick here for another two weeks and see where that takes me BF wise.  I've also upped the volume in training as well.  I will try and take a picture this week as well.

Thats about it I guess.. Have a good weekend everyone!